Monthly Archives: March 2013

When Em turned two, I said, “I’d give a limb to have her ask for something.”

When Em was three, I said, “If only she could tell me what was wrong.”

When Em was four, I said,  “If only she was able to understand.”

When Em was five, I said, “If only she would sleep through the night.”

When Em was six, I said, “If only she would learn to use the bathroom during the night too.”

When Em was seven, I said, “If only I understood what she was thinking.”

When Em was eight, I said, “I just want her to be safe.”

When Em was nine, I said, “I want her to have choices in her life.”

When Em was ten, I said, “I think I’m beginning to understand.”

When Em turned eleven, I said, “Thank you.  Just thank you.”

Things continue to change.  We adjust.  I continue to change and my life gets bigger and fuller.  Em continues to change and her life gets bigger and fuller.  I didn’t fully appreciate or understand this when Em was first diagnosed, but I do now.

Everything changes.  I’m learning to embrace it.