When Emma was a toddler she had a mermaid finger puppet. It had long black hair, sported a blue bikini top and had a blue sequined tail. At the time, I thought it was the first of what would be many dolls. I loved dolls when I was little. My favorite doll was named Maribelle. Her left hand, the victim of my rage when I was four and hacked off three of her fingers with a pair of pruning shears was a reminder of anger gone awry. I immediately regretted my actions and attempted to glue her fingers back on. Crazy glue was not the common item found in every tool box as it is today. My options were Elmer’s and rubber cement, neither of which could repair the damage. I then tried tape with no better results. At some point the fingers were lost or I threw them away, I can no longer remember. Mirabelle’s fingers, while physically gone, are forever etched in my conscience, an impulsive act I could not undo. Still, I loved Mirabelle and though I eventually moved on to a series of other baby dolls, little girl dolls and finally Barbie dolls, my first love was Mirabelle. All these years later Maribelle resides in the blue and silver striped trunk she originally came in, now in an upstairs closet in my mother’s house. I have never been able to part with her, my thinking was that if I had a daughter, perhaps she would one day want to have her.
When Emma showed interest in the mermaid, I had high hopes for Mirabelle’s return. Only, it turns out, Emma’s mermaid did not hold the same sort of feelings as Mirabelle had for me. The mermaid was the beginning of a series of objects that Emma was fascinated by. The item that eventually replaced Emma’s mermaid was The Corpse Bride from the Tim Burton movie with the same name. Then it was Jessie from Toy Story and after that a long stick picked up from the playground. From there she gravitated to a series of sticks, balloon strings and her current favorite: packing string. The packing string is a work in progress, held together in the middle with masking tape, then scotch tape, which was then covered in reinforced packing tape and finally covered in turquoise duct tape. When we were at Granma’s house, Emma covered the turquoise duct tape in masking tape she found in a drawer in my mother’s kitchen. When we returned home, Emma covered the masking tape with yet another layer of the turquoise duct tape. It has a certain heft to it and looks like this.
I know a little more than I did when Emma first ran back and forth from our front door through the house and back to the front door with the finger puppet held between her thumb and index finger, the mermaid’s black hair swinging to and fro as she ran. Today Emma holds her “string” as we call it, in her hand while dancing. Her string serves as part security object, part stim object, part something else that I am still trying to figure out. “An attachment to peculiar objects…” is one of many characteristics of autism, but when Emma was little, it was just a mermaid. Who knew?
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Honestly, I love the thought and consideration she has put into “string.” It is truly an original, a one-of-a-kind, just like its creator!
I agree. I’m actually quite proud of her creation. It is heavy, however, but I think that’s part of its appeal!
Ariane I just love how Emma’s string has grown Have thought of telling you about this before when you have talked about Emma’s beloved string. In gymnastics they use a ribbon that twirls around on a stick. I saw Roslyn with one at her school when they did a circus themed school concert she used it and loved it so much I found them on the internet and bought some for her for Xmas, She loves twirling it around.
The funniest is watching Liam’s friend , Kon, a big 12 year old boy dancing and waving it around (he has ASD too) – so I guess I am getting him some for his birthday. This is a link that has a picture of what I am talking about. If Emma really enjoys the actual swirling movement of the string ( some kind of visual stim maybe?) she might like this too. http://www.rhythmicgymnastics.com/search_result.asp?CATEGORY=Sticks&MANUFACTURER=ALL&DESCRIPTION=&PRODUCT_ID=
Thanks so much for the link, Liz. Who knew they came in such a wide variety of colors? Emma had a ribbon like these on the web site you’ve sent when she was first diagnosed. It was satin ribbon in multiple colors. She loved it.
You see there is a whole sport around “string”!
Love that – really legitimizes the whole thing! By the way have you seen this book about dogs who have been trained to help people with disabilities?
If we didn’t live in New York City, I would read it and get one.